They say what happens to you in life is not what matters,
That it's what you do afterwards, that actually does.
I followed that advice, and I have become nothing close to what I dreamt to be.
I was a bubbly person, fun, loved hanging out, I trusted people, going on adventures and trips, and making new friends.
Now, I am a very quiet, reserved and introverted human being, locking everyone out of my enormous walls.
I am comfortable with where I am, sometimes.
But the truth is, I would be way way waaaayyyy ahead in life if I did not change my personality.
I am a woman, and I will always be high in hormones, in search of the truth, the right career, the right man, the right time to do this and that...
But it doesn't not grant me a free ticket to take my pain out on any other people/things.
So, I own up to my dead life, this dead life I have been living for far too long.
I ask for grace to make a change soon.
