I Am His Lethal Sin.

He calls me to hear my voice
I call him to know if he's fine
We don't do it often
We both have too much pride
To admit to each other
What our relationship does to one another.

I don't take him home,
He doesn't take me to his mama
My friends don't even know him
And his, don't know me, let alone my friends
When he has to see me, or I him,
It has to be away from familiarity.

We get talking
I love his vibe
He gets off my vibe too
He gives me those eyes...
On our not-so-awkward, not-so-comfortable silence breaks
You know, those eyes that say, "Damn girl, I wish 'she' was you."

We are done talking
Catching up
After 5 whole hours
Just as usual
I am kind of sad, and so is he
But he is always brave about it... nkt... these lads!

We get into the car
He is not driving this time
We are being driven
We are in the back seat, he holds my hand, gently but with a reassuring firm grip,
And we snuggle
It's raining outside, perfect way to keep warm as we talk
But soon we fall short of words
Words limit our truest of feelings
So we sit in explosive but comfortable silence
'Till we get to my place
And he opens the car door
Perfect gentleman.

The moment is here
I look deep into his glistening eyes
As he unflinchingly looks into mine
He pulls me to himself and holds me tight
This feeling is lethal
I want to die and I want to live forever.

In eight seconds
Our heartbeats sync
It's mythical, fantasy, ecstasy
This feeling I have inside of me
I don't want to let go
And he doesn't stop me.

This sin becomes too real for him
It has to end there
I am at my doorstep
I have to get in - "It's chilly" he says
He needs to go home
Or at least that is what I tell myself.

Every time we meet
The feeling is the same, only deeper
Every time he holds me in his arms, all my walls come down
He shakes, and I shiver, when I behold his scent and he sniffs my hair
( Oh he loves the scent of my hair :) )
But the fact that he hides me from his world
Like an abominable sin, quickly dries up the tears streaming down my cheeks when I turn to look for my key.