I Don't Want.

Sometimes I don't want to talk to anyone,
Sometimes all I feel is pain
Sometimes I feel like I wanna give it all up
The fighting
The hoping
The wishing
The dreaming.

Sometimes I just don't want to hear anything
Sometimes I just don't want to do the right thing
Sometimes I just want to be alone
No talk
No texts
No calls
Just me and my alter egos.

You say you want me to share
What I feel
On the inside -
But when I do,
You quickly judge me
And you forget that I shared it in confidence
From a friend
To a friend.

So understand
When I do not want to talk.
When I cannot reply your text messages.
It is just me,
Being at that place
Where I can't help
But
Not want.