I want to, but I don't.

I want to accept, but i find my self not,

I want to love fully, but i hate often,

I want to trust sincerely, but i doubt always,

I want to be happy, but I'm mostly sad,

I want to cry after all this, but i'm too proud to show hurt, so i cry away from everyone.

I want to be respected, but i fall for those who do me wrong,

I am a good girl, but get intrigued by bad boys,

I keep going when i have every reason to give up, but i lose hope when faced with a small issue,

I make the most important decisions in the shower, and i lose focus at work meetings,

I want true happiness but I've been hurt so much, that somehow, 'hurt' is my comfort zone.