Protection.

The pain is getting too much,
Too much that it feels so good inside,
the wall I built was to protect me.

I met you, you doubted my pain
I can't demolish the wall just yet
Yes you've never hurt me, we just met
And yes I'm not right for not letting you in
But who said I should let you in anyways
I'm just looking out for me.

Days go by; you visit, I smile
But is it really enough for me to let my guard down just coz...?
Sorry I'm not pushing you away for the mistake made by others
I'm just protecting myself.

Tommorow comes, you pinch my heart
I can't even stand you name today
What was it you said again?
"stop punishing me for the mistakes made by others"
So was this "others", or entirely you?

It tarts all over again
I love my pain
The wall I keep building, I build to protect me.

Anonymous Angel.