Nairobi Girl.

Does experience truly define maturity

  

But there is something exciting,

when an under aged girl

drinks

Then she starts to look 

more like a woman   

  

Oddly enough, there's a certain power 

that comes with manipulation 

Sadly, she finds a haven of peace 

in a score 

and a California king size bed 

  

Eventually, 

this girl "grows up"

and eventually, everything seems 

smaller and nonsensical in her small small town

Then she reaches a point in her life,

where she understand the way of this so called "life"

that life always finds a way to f#ck her 

up into submission 

  

But she tells her inner self

the inner voice of reason

that it's easy to count days 

when truly all you are afraid of is a bump 

  

Flashback:

She goes back to the place where

she remembers how many times 

the friend inside 

suggests 

a simple solution 

  

Surely, she keeps asking herself

how many times can you drown before you lose the will to resurface? 

This college grad is at a difficult place

  

She hears the words of her father:

Self respect is a very hard lesson that sometimes is never quite learned 

  

But then again, dad is a hypocrite-never practicing what he preached.

This often happens, when you grow up in a competitive world, a man’s world, no father figure around and you're a girl. 

This happens when you're forced to live a life like that of generations past

  

When a girl gets here, she somehow gets a sick obsession 

with the most unappealing desires 

(most of you know this) 

Then the voice comes up again n her head, 

when she looks into his drunk ugly eyes that embody what hell really is like:

“It's easy to count the days when you find yourself at …”