The Pain of Regret and Fear.

The pain of regret is worst of all because by the time it hits you that you lost its in most cases too late. And just the thought of that loss is unbearable.
Yet it's self inflicted and you can't blame anyone expect yourself.

Some of the reasons for this include fear.
Being afraid to dare, being afraid of the shame that comes with falling short. 

We shall never know if we never dared God and see that he can do what he says he can do. 

I went to a hospital and laid hands on a patient and prayed the pray of Mark 16:18.

And they still died and I was so discouraged that fear gripped my heart such that I was so apprehensive to do that in public again. But then my son got sick and medicine was not doing much and when I dared God healed him and he was discharged from hospital. 

From that day on I resolved that God could depend on me by His grace and being embarrassed would not stop me.

The thought that scares me is, what if God honoured that prayer such that that person would live and not die because I obeyed.

Fear is not of God but the devil.

Fear not; for God is with us; not because we are without sin but because God is faithful to his word. 

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Forgiving and Forgetting and Moving On.

That moment when you are on social media

And a thought crosses your mind

It's been long since you saw your Ex's profile

That is, after blocking, un-following or de-friend-ing him/her.

So you go to their profile

And start seeing what they have been up to

Funny enough your heart is racing

And something tells you, "You might not want to see what you are just about to see".

But some other thing tells you "There is only one way to find out if you have TRULY moved on"

So the profile is full of fun stuff, which gives the notion that they have been having a swell time without you

But then further down, you see those sweet-nothings you used to write to each other

They are still there

They are there for the whole world to see that once upon a time, they loved you

And they loved you truly, deeply, sincerely

Even if it was not meant to last, for the time it did, you were indeed loved.

So you log out of social media with a smile

Knowing that however your relationship ended, or however bitter either of you were

Even with all the hate you once had in your heart for each other

Your Ex can never change how you made them feel.